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Remember ye not the former things, neither consider the things of old.  Behold, I will do a new thing; now it shall spring forth; shall ye not know it?  I will even make a way in the wilderness, and rivers in the desert.                    - Isaiah 43:18-19  Whew!  It's been a journey!  While I am glad to be this far into it, I am saddened that not everything that the Lord has done was documented.  HOWEVER, I will share as He brings it to my remembrance.    I will be using this to post my studies that I share twice a month in church and also to share my personal studies as they arise and the Lord leads me to share them.   The grief and healing journey I have been on since my son passed from suicide is more of an in-person ministry right now as it is a raw and sensitive situation.  I am very protective over my son and his sisters and have an obligation to protect their privacy. I may ...

Grief, Vulnerability, and the People Who Mishandle It



There’s something I need to say, and it's not for drama or attention, but for truth, for protection, and from a mother’s heart. To be honest, I wish I didn't even have to come here to say this at all, but what is going on is ridiculous and needs to stop.

Since Levi passed away, one of his sisters (whom I will not name here) has walked through a level of grief that would crumble most people and she has had a very difficult time with it. She has been trying to cope in ways that aren’t always healthy, and more often than not, she has slipped into confusion and even psychosis. That’s what trauma can do to a tender, hurting heart.

But what has broken my heart and frustrated me even more is that ....some people (yes, EVEN FAMILY) saw her vulnerability and did not reach for her in love!

They latched onto her pain, believed every scattered word, added deception, stirred confusion, and used it as fuel for gossip. Not one of them reached out to me as her mother, or to any of her siblings, to ask if she was okay, how they could help, or even what was really going on so they wouldn't hurt her more than she was already hurting.

Not once!

And I want to be very clear here.....We are a close family! We always have been and always will be! My children talk to me! We communicate openly! We walk through life TOGETHER!

We all know that silence speaks… and in this case, it spoke pretty loudly. It revealed their heart.....not hers.

And not only was their silence toxic, but their involvement and conversation with her was as well. It was a convenient opportunity! It was never rooted in concern or love, but for reasons that justify why I no longer engage with them and their toxicity.

And yes....I have the screenshots. And they are disturbing, to say the least, ESPECIALLY those from my relatives.

If you’re going to stand close enough to someone’s pain to hear their struggle, then you’d better be close enough to love them, help them, or seek truth......NOT add deception, deepen confusion, or seek to divide.

Anything less is not discernment....IT'S DESTRUCTION.

And you NEED to hear me clearly....I will protect my daughters and my grandbabies.
I will protect our peace. I will protect our homes.  And I will do that the way I always have....by praying, by discerning, and by addressing things when the Lord prompts me to.

Silence does not protect families… truth does. Prayer does. Light does.

So I will continue to stand, continue to speak, and continue to cover my children in prayer, no matter who is uncomfortable with that.

I will NOT allow destruction, deception, or toxicity anywhere near my family.

This is not anger... or me "starting stuff"....this is a mother standing guard.

And no, I WON'T apologize for that.

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